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64

Location

Brunswick, GA

Birthday

November 20
 
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Age

64

Birthday

November 20

Location

Brunswick, GA

Languages

English
 

About Me

Published author and Internet writer Roger Dean Kiser's stories take you into the heart of a child abandoned by his family and abused by the system responsible for his care. Through his stories, he relives the sadness and cruelty of growing up an orphan in the early 1950’s.

Today, Kiser lives in Brunswick, Georgia with his wife Judy where he continues to write and publishing most of his work on his Internet web site: http://www.geocities.com/trampolineone

Since it’s beginning, "The American Orphan Web Site" has become one of the most read child abuse web sites in the world. At last count, it had a readership of about 11.8 million since November 1999.

It is through his writing that Kiser has begun healing the pain, suffering and sadness of the orphan within him. Unknowingly at first and by the power of the Internet, Kiser's short stories have touched millions.

In the vein of Mark Twain, Roger Dean Kiser's collection of almost 700 stories has captured the drama and emotion of not only his childhood, but also his current day tales. Kiser's short stories carry with them strong images and feelings that search out and find that common thread which connects each of us to our own emotions.

Roger Dean Kiser is the author of the books "Orphan, A True Story of Abandonment, Abuse and Redemption," "American Orphan" and now his newest book titled "RUNAWAY, Life on the streets-The Lessons Learned."

Roger will never forget how he and about 300 other children were treated as though they were less than human while living at the Children's Home Society Orphanage in Jacksonville, Florida during the 1950’s and 1960’s.

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INTRODUCTION


It is my intention, through my stories, to try to relate the pain, suffering and sadness an orphan (or abused child) feels after reaching adulthood. What I wish for you to remember when you are reading my stories and after you have finished them is that the pain and sadness you feel will disappear within a minute, an hour, a day or a week. You will once again return to your normal life, with your normal feelings. Orphans and abused children forever remain in that state of sadness and loneliness--a state that you will experience only while reading his or her stories.

"Child Abuse Killed Me From The Inside Out"

Roger Dean Kiser

This is the part I have never been able to get over, a part I have never been able to remove from my life, even as an adult. This sadness and suffering has become who I am as a person. It is whom I wake up with every morning of my life. Asking an orphan to just "grab himself up by the boot straps" and put this sadness behind him would be like asking you to forget that two plus two equals four. Once the “sadness equation” has been taught and drilled into your head for years, it cannot be forgotten or erased. It is impossible for the orphan to forget sadness or loneliness. Those of you who have lost a mother or father (or both) might be able to understand to some extent. It is a sadness that tears your heart out by the core. Most of you who lose your parents will overcome that sadness, because you will have memories of devotion, guidance, tenderness, hugs and--most of all--the love they left with you. You are able to "get over it" because you will have memories of good things to hold on to and they will carry you onward. The orphan has none of those things; there are no good, kind or loving things for him or her to remember. So when there is no love to remember, the only thing left is the hate. Please remember the orphan lives every day of his or her life with a horrible feeling of sadness and loneliness. Please do not forget that.

It is not the physical pain that endangers most orphans; it is the mental pain. Pain caused by stress from years and years of being neglected, pushed aside, disregarded, unloved and made to feel undeserving. In almost all cases, the orphan is made to feel like a possession, rather than an equal human being. However, one key element is the real cause of the orphan's problem. It is the lack of "unconditional love," the given right to be accepted as a child and to be loved as a child, no matter what you do.

Orphans must always, from their first day in the orphanage, "walk the line." Any variation from that "line" and the orphan will be thrown away, discarded like a piece of trash. The orphan knows that very well. The orphanage makes sure the orphans know it and do not forget it. That is the one thing for which orphans will never forgive the orphanage. The reason for this lack of forgiveness on the part of orphans is that for the remainder of their lives, they will feel undeserving of love, devotion and equality.

Favorite Music

Easy Listening
 

Favorite Movies

Sling Blade
Of Mice and Men
Door to Door
 

Favorite TV Shows

Kinf of Queens
60 minutes
20/20
Lou Dobbs Tonight
Glenn beck Show
 

Favorite Books

Mine
 

Favorite Quote

“To a child who has nothing,
a little bit means everything.

To a child who has everything,
a little bit means nothing.”

Roger Dean Kiser. Author
 

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KHAKI : Apr 3, 2008
Throughout the years, I have had many unusual experiences while working in the nursing profession; but none as unusual as the night Khaki came into my life.

As my life was rather disruptive and in turmoil for many years; I cannot remember exactly where I was or which hospital I was at when this incident occurred. I am pretty sure it was Carbon County Memorial Hospital in Rawlins, Wyoming or Phoebe Putney Memorial Hospital in Albany, Georgia. I was sixteen or seventeen years old at the time. Before becoming a Licensed Practical Nurse, I worked as an orderly for about a year.

I was working on the second floor Medical Ward when I met an elderly gentleman by the name of Mr. Charles Krauthhammer. I had never heard of such a weird name before, but now-a-days I think of him, almost daily, as a reporter who appears on Fox News has that same name.

He was a friendly man but he never had much to say to anyone. What I do remember most about him was every time I would walk into his room I would hear him say, “I love khaki more than anything in this world.” His almost silent voice would always quiver as he mumbled those words.

I never knew exactly what he meant by that, but taking a guess I thought he was talking about the color khaki or khaki pants.

As the days went by, everyone on the ward was rather surprised that Mr. Krauthhammer continued to live. He was very sick and he must have been almost a hundred years old. He had to be the oldest man I had ever known. For some reason, maybe it was his long white beard, he reminded me a little bit of Moses from the Bible.

I began to ask some of the nurses if they knew what “Mr. K” meant when he said the word “Khaki,” but no one seemed to know. I learned from another orderly that Khaki was his only living family. That Khaki was the name of his little Bull Dog.

Knowing that he would not live much longer; I asked the charge nurse if "I might try and find his dog so they could visit." I was told, in no uncertain terms, that “animals are not allowed on hospital grounds,” and “that I was to mind my own business.”

That was a very hard thing for me to do. I mean, someone was dying just down the hallway and the world just kept on moving on. It was as if no one cared about anyone who was dying. Laughing and joking at the nurse’s station; the big fish someone caught last weekend or the party they were going to throw was all that seemed to matter. Mr. K had no more importance than did the dirty old piece of cardboard I had seen earlier, blowing across the parking lot.

Late one foggy evening, I walked to the hospital to see if I could locate the pack of cigarettes I had lost. Not having much money; I didn’t want to spend another thirty-eight cents for another pack, until it was absolutely necessary. I located the cigarettes in the break room, stuck them in my pocket and walked out through the back entrance of the emergency room. I sat down on the cement banister and lit a cigarette.

“Excuse me,” said a woman’s voice, from behind the five foot brick wall.

Looking over the edge, I saw a somewhat frail woman dressed in a black robe, black boots and a black hat. She had a rolled up towel in her arms.

“Will you please take this to Mr. Krauthhammer?”

Standing up, I tried to see what she was talking about.

I walked down the four or five steps and headed toward her. Stopping in front of her; all I could see was the bundled up towel.

“What is it?” I asked.

Very carefully she unrolled the towel, exposing the contents.

“That’s a darn weasel!” I exclaimed, as I saw a small animal.

“No, it’s not a Weasel, it’s a Ferret.” She whispered.

“Why would Mr. K want a Weasel, I mean a Farrel?”

“A Ferret and his name is Khaki,” she told me.

“I thought Khaki was a bull dog.”

She just smiled and held the animal toward me.

“I can’t take no animals in the hospital or I’ll get into real bad trouble.”

“You won’t get into any trouble, I promise,” she advised me.

Pushing the animal in my direction, I reached out and took the ferret, covered it with the towel, and just stood there.

“Now listen. Take Khaki to Mr. Krauthammer’s room. He will be lying on his back with his arm resting on his forehead. Place Khaki in the fold of his arm. Now this part is very important. Do not touch any patient or any living thing until you wash your hands. Do you understand?”

“Right now?” I questioned.

“NO, after you deliver Khaki.”

“I’ll never make it to his room. I’ll get caught.”

“No one will see you. You’ll see,” she told me, as she backed away.

I turned around to throw the cigarette butt in the ash can and when I tuned around the woman as gone. I stood there for several minutes debating on whether I should release the animal behind the bushes or do as instructed.

I covered the ferret, as best as I could, and headed inside. I was surprised when the entire emergency room crew was in the back room eating birthday cake and giving Joyce some presents. I made my way to the elevator and went to the second floor. Seeing no one at the nurse’s station; I quickly walked to Mr. K’s room. It was just like she had said; he was lying on his back with his arm resting on his forehead. Reaching his bedside, I opened the towel, took out Khaki and placed him between Mr. Krauthammer’s neck and arm. Slowly he opened his eyes and smiled at me.

“Thank you so much son. Wish you would eat that small Jell-O on that tray, Be a shame to waste it,” he whispered.

As I reached for the Jell-O he said, “You forgetting something?”

“I don’t think so.”

“Aren’t you supposed to wash your hands?”

I walked to the sink and began washing my hands. When I turned around the ferret was no where to be seen. Mr. Krauthammer’s eyes were wide open and he lay motionless. I ran out of the room and was out of breath when I reached the nurse’s station.

“I think something’s wrong with Mr. K. He’s not moving at all and his eyes are open,” I yelled at the charge nurse.

Holly Hell broke lose when a “code red” was called over the intercom. Doctors and nurses came running from every direction. I stood by the maintenance closet for more than thirty minutes waiting for things to settle down. When all was said and done; Mr. K, completely covered with a sheet, was taken out of the room and taken to the basement. I walked into his room and inspected every nook and cranny. Khaki the ferret was no where to be found.

Several heavyset housekeepers came into the room and began stripping it down. One picked up the plastic cup of Jello and headed toward the garbage can. “Mr. K said I could have that Jell-O,” I told her.

She sat the Jell-O back on the patient stand and began stripping off the bed. I picked up the small cup and walked back through the Emergency Room, out the door and sat back down on the cement banister. I really did not want to eat his Jell-O, but that was Mr. K’s last wish and he was important to me and Khaki.

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Jul 6, 2008 9:22 AM
 
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May 28, 2008 10:40 PM
 
Hello Roger,
 
May 13, 2008 12:36 PM
 
I just wanted to say that i truly admire your work and your stories really make the difference for many people .
Have a nice day :)
 
 
 
Apr 17, 2008 7:20 AM
 
My great hope is to laugh as much as I cry; to get my work done and try to love somebody and have the courage to accept the love in return.
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